Well it’s good to hear your voice. I hope you’re doing fine. And if you ever wonder, I’m lonely here tonight. Lost here in this moment, time keeps slipping by. If I could have just one wish, I’d have you by my side.
Well I tried to live without you, but tears fall from my eyes. I’m alone and I feel empty. I’m torn apart inside. I look up at the starts. Hoping you are doing the same. And somehow I feel closer, and I can hear you say. Oh, I miss you. Oh, I need you.
I never wanna lose you, and if I had to I would choose you. So stay, please always stay. You’re the one that I hold on to 'cuz my heart would stop without you.
I love you more than I did before. And if today I don’t see your face, nothing’s changed, no one can take your place. It gets harder everyday. Say you love me more than you did before, and I’m sorry that it’s this way. But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home. And if you ask me, I will stay. I will stay.
Well, that's one of the song that got stucked in my head at the moment. I love being single but sometimes I miss being in a relationship #tweetfacts :p But yeah, life goes on. Reminds me of the recordings. You see, I have this one habit, sometimes I just love to record whenever I was on the phone with my boyfriend. Heh, annoying I know. Surprisingly, I have all of my ex'es recordings. *winkwink* Don't try to tell me, for sometimes it even freaks me out whenever I think about it. But hey let's look at the brightside! I did spent my day well yesterday. Headed to Empire for some macaroons, bumped into cousins, had some chitchat with Shafiq, currently skyping with Bha Ayien, and I miss my Han Ki Joo :( But don't make me start. Once I start, I can't never be stopped #koreanfever . Try me if you dare :p
Dear Han Ki Joo, I adore you since I was 15. Marry me!
I found it quite annoying when people keep telling me "Illy, you should get a BF a.s.a.p.!!" and this "awak choosy sangat Illy,". About getting a boyfie, yes I admit sometimes I do miss being in a relationship. Starting to read all the old chats I saved and yada yada yada. I'm not saying I'm all heartless or whatever shit. Sometimes, I fall and yet, I tried to, how do you say it, like, vanishes it? kills it? Whatever that is, yes, I'll try my best to get rid of any rosy feelings I get. I'm afraid I only fall for a minute and a minute later, I'm done. (Hang bajet player ke apa?) NO. I'm not saying that Imma player! Eeeeeii!! I don't give out hopes. I reject my own feelings. I push people away. (Hang jual mahal ka?) NO. Bukan jual murah or having a megasale or clearance stock, NO! I just don't find anyone that I can trust, a person who can takes the risk of.. Neah, I'm not that dangerous creature but, damnn. What am I again? *started to think of a word* NOT that you freak. Whatever it is, I just don't understand myself for now maybe 'cuz of the "personality confusion" I'm dealing with here so don't bother trying. But you can give out your opinion by stripping down your thoughts down there. #justsayin'
All in all, I'm doing fine. Nothing to brag or nothing to hide. So, to my future boyfriend, don't freak out when you read my old posts. It's just some nagging thoughts that randomly I have in mind. I'm in my 20s, eventhough I'm still 19 HELLO, but yeah, it's an involuntary action that's out of my control. But hey, at least I'm being honest here. With me, with you and to the world. :p Naked mind, I see. Lucky you my friend, Ayien asked me not to talk about the Weed thigy here but you better watch out, young man. Once I caught you sucking those shit again you siap.
Also, I want to share these links. Just shut up and click!
(A bunch of thanks to BhAyien for giving me some cool links. Heeee you make my day so bright glimmering shimmering shining shining one ya know dat? You rawksz bebeh!)
Anyway, check out Nicole Scherzinger's latest video. Totally a bod that worth to die for. =3 Like yeah yeah yeah yeah me like it. Yeah, me like it :p
Soooooooooo, that's about it. Hasta manana! :D
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